For over a year my mom had lost her hearing. She couldn’t even hear herself talk. Can you imagine being deaf for a whole year? She now has hearing aids until she gets surgery. It was a bright moment this year to tell her I love her again, and her to hear that. I felt so bad for her to feel so alone and isolated.
I decided to make her a playlist of some calm tunes and see what she likes and maybe it would feel good to hear a variation of sounds. Tumblr doesn’t let you embed Playlists so here’s the link to the 20 track playlist I made for momma dukes:
Oh noose tied myself in, tied myself too tight Looking kind of anxious in your cross armed stance Like a bad tempered prom queen at a homecoming dance And I claim I’m not excited with my life any more So I blame this town, this job, these friends The truth is it’s myself And I’m trying to understand myself and pinpoint where i am When I finally get it figured out I’ve change the whole damn plan Oh noose tied myself in, tied myself too tight Talking shit about a pretty sunset Blanketing opinions that I’ll probably regret soon I’ve changed my mind so much I cant even trust it My mind changed me so much I cant even trust myself
And you were a house on fire and I couldn’t understand why Burn me all down to the ground, you said, the fire is on the inside Flames dancing like ghosts behind the windows Pain jumping from the walls You wanna keep this private, I can see that, but But you can’t ask that of me, we’ve only just met I said we need help now more than ever before do you believe it The answer was silence, I’ll take it as a no We all wanna be normal anyways We all wanna be somewhere else, somewhere we live But that’s not reality that’s just point of view
Let’s not talk about the weather and whether or not there’s really rain in the clouds Unless you just wanna know if I feel the same as you It’s more measuring up than just wasting time But time is not on our side, you’re burning Rain would only be a temporary fix And there’s just no place right now for cute ironies like that any more You’re a house on fire We all write songs about life we just sing ‘em different You sing the words but you don’t know the song And you expect us all to sing along, how selfish The lengths that we go to to put so much distance between us is staggering You’re burning alive with stress and life Both hands in flames trying to hold the fire inside Drop and roll, repeat line for emphasis
I’ll repeat it and repeat it until you believe it You’re gonna be ok, say it to me The answer’s still silence, I’ll take it as a maybe I can’t decide if I should knock down your door, or on it Say the word and I’ll take a hatchet to your heart, or a pin prick Cut right through the darkness, pull out the contents On our knees, sorting through the remnants Pour out your hates in my hands I’ll let them slip right here through my fingers, and And this is for all of us This is for the times that we only listen long enough To know that the other person we’re talking to has the same opinion as we do From when we’re burning inside From when we’re trying to hide that fact This is for the scalps that we went after To be only the best dressed Add another notch on our belts, put another feather in our headress Well I wanna be the bigger man for you but I can’t take all this truth I’m tryin’a kick the habit here but these track marks are a hundred proof Burn me all down to the ground, you said, well Well I’ll kick through your ashes, hope they sober up my head
A nice heart and a white suit and a baby blue sedan And I am doing the best that I can All the eunuchs, they were standing in rows singing, “Please stud us out just as fast as you possibly can.” Sad song, last dance and no one knows who the band was And Henry, you danced like a wooden Indian Except this one mattered and I felt it had a spirit And I shot the story because I didn’t hear it that way And it’s hard to be a human being And it’s harder as anything else And I’m lonesome when you’re around And I’m never lonesome when I’m by myself And I miss you when you’re around